A Father and a Home to return to

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Tired. Frustrated. Worn out. Confused. Hurt and wounded. Life has ruthlessly dealt with me by consistently giving me one blow after another. Failure has become a part and parcel of my life, not to mention one battle after another. Success is one thing I know nothing about, and on the other hand, victory seems to play hide and seek with me. Anguish, sorrows, afflictions and pain have become the order of the day in my life. My young heart is weighed down, and it seems like all hope is lost. I seek for answers to all the questions that keep on bombarding my mind, yet they seem to hide behind corners. What’s happening? What’s really going on? Is this really my life? Where did I go wrong? Who am I? Why am I even existing?

“I don’t know what to do anymore” is one statement I find myself uttering every time all this gets into my head. But honestly, I am tired.

Life has become a mystery for me. A mystery only my creator can unveil. It has become like a puzzle. A puzzle only He can solve. Things have become really messy, but what can I do? Times without number, I have found myself down and crushed. I have found myself lost and in the middle of nowhere. I have been in cycles and circles of failure, despair and desperation. Giving up is one thought that has crossed my mind many times. I have wandered on and about seeking for solutions for my life, and honestly, there are times I have felt, and even thought that I am helpless. Sometimes I wonder if I am left to figure out the way for myself, without knowing how I got here in the first place….

Thinking about it though, I realise that life is a journey and the path to follow is full of hills, mountains, valleys, plains and it’s crooked. I know, even believe that I can come out of this whole mess mature and stronger, but what does it really take?

I do have my own dreams and aspirations, and one thing I am sure of is that, what has worked for another may not necessarily work for me. I believe that what makes the path of life’s destination crooked, confusing and even hard to walk on is due to the fact that the paths to follow are as many as the people who are walking the face of the earth, which means that following others may lead one to a dead end. I mean, everyone is busy looking for a way out of their own issues, and somehow, we all have a way. Following people however, is one thing that has led many to failure. Copying​ other people’s way of doing things is something that has led many to get lost in this world. This is why many people today, just like me, are nursing stress, failure, disappointments and frustrations because what we thought would work for us never did.

Settling for less is not new in our generation; having great ideas that remain ideas is not new either. Many of us carry greatness within us, yet we don’t know what to do with what we possess; and while some of us are beaten down, oppressed and suppressed to an extent that we can’t see anything good that can come out of us, others are busy copy pasting other people’s way of doing things and following the multitude to make things work. We’ve been led through the wrong paths, deceived and lied to, and worse still, we’ve been limited and caged to an extent that we can’t expand, grow or even take the necessary steps and actions needed to fulfill our dreams and visions. But where is the solution?

Consider this …

If you have been deceived and lied to, Jesus is the truth…

you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free” (John 8:32),

if you have wandered and lost your way, Jesus is the way…

I am the way, the truth and the life (John 14:6),

if you are tired, worn out, frustrated and overwhelmed, Jesus will give you rest…

Come to me, all of you who are tired from carrying heavy loads, and I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28).

These are just few examples to help us understand that we are not as helpless as we think. We do have a Father, God Almighty Himself. I may not know Him too well, but His love is not strange to me. I realise that no matter how messed up I am, He is always ready to receive me back. He is always waiting for me to return, with open arms and such love that I can’t explain. He is always ready to take care of my wounds and bruises that I have gotten in the process of my wandering about. He is always ready to heal my broken heart, as well as console and comfort me. Above all, He is always ready and willing to restore me back. He offers me such rest that the world and all that it possesses cannot offer me. So, when I find myself in a mess and unable to figure things out, I remind myself of one thing, I have a Father who will never leave me nor forsake me, no matter what happens.

Israel, the Lord who created you says, “Do not be afraid—I will save you. I have called you by name—you are mine. When you pass through deep waters, I will be with you; your troubles will not overwhelm you. When you pass through fire, you will not be burned; the hard trials that come will not hurt you. For I am the Lord your God, the holy God of Israel, who saves you. I will give up Egypt to set you free; I will give up Ethiopia and Seba. I will give up whole nations to save your life, because you are precious to me and because I love you and give you honor. Do not be afraid—I am with you! (Isaiah 43:1‭-‬5).

“But you, Israel my servant, you are the people that I have chosen, the descendants of Abraham, my friend. I brought you from the ends of the earth; I called you from its farthest corners and said to you, ‘You are my servant.’ I did not reject you, but chose you. Do not be afraid—I am with you! I am your God—let nothing terrify you! I will make you strong and help you; I will protect you and save you (Isaiah 41:8‭-‬10).